Dear Kirty:

You wrote, “I feel so depressed about al these years of my youth just passing by”- I don’t know if it will help you to think this way, but it helps me because the following thinking is true to reality:

youth passes no matter how we spent that youth. Youth passes or is otherwise gone for every person who has ever lived, who will ever live, anywhere. We are all in the same boat this way.

Who does not regret the passing of youth- if one enjoyed that youth, there is a lot of regret about losing all that joy. If one didn’t enjoy youth much, there is regret about not having enjoyed it. There is regret in either case, unless we are able to choose to.. not regret.

Question is if and how can you make your relationship with your husband better. The fighting has to stop, for the sake of the children and for your sake and his. Is there a possibility of you going back to work earlier than in (how many years from now?)

I suppose there are a few options for you, separation or divorce may be one, or not. Going back to work earlier than later is another possibility. I assume you already thought about your options.

* I will be back to the computer in a couple of hours or so.

anita