Hi Anita,

I am so upset & about to dig a hole for myself!!  After a week of waiting for my ex to send the key he has which I asked him last Monday, or Tuesday to mail …he texted he would.  Yesterday, I was going over to the building to organize and pick up some things & thought maybe he had put it in the secret place we put the keys.  Well he didn’t & I sent a text “where is the key”, NO RESPONSE & I know he saw it~Then being angry with no response & feeling like he was playing with me letting his new girl know I was texting I sent another “I have things to take care of & don’t have time for this”, No response & a final text of “Do not want to contact you so please stop this”…I know I was the one that texted & was referring to his games & wanted him to know I wasn’t texting him to meet, or talk…just where was the key. (maybe a bad decision on my part)

This morning he  sends a text saying he has errands to run tomorrow & what time would I like to get together!!! (Like everything is just peachy), Disregarding my texts..I shouldn’t have but I told him once again to mail the key & sent another one after that when I decided I  have had enough of his stupid games and told him just to forget about it~I know I shouldn’t have sent a single text & I can get in the building with some help.  I was hoping so bad he would stop acting like a child an be nice.

Why do you feel he never responds to me unless it’s convenient for him~ He never did that before.  He never responds to me quickly like he does everyone else & I know that because that’s all he does at work it text & e-mail.

It shouldn’t but he is still breaking my Heart.  I didn’t think I could feel anymore  hurt that I have felt this long lonely summer, but once again it happened today.  I almost have no words for the hurt & can barely cry anymore.  These feeling are becoming to familiar & it scares me…I have never felt this much pain for such a long period of time with no relief.

I wish I was a songwriter, it would make a great country song~

Bella~