Depression is evil and sinister. It sucks the life and joy straight out of you. I have suffered with it off and on for 20 years. Right now I am in the middle of my worst episode ever. I understand and empathize with you. Things that have helped me a lot are therapy (you can get quick free therapy on several websites or 1800 numbers), meds (which I hate taking but they do seem to take the edge off….however they have long term side effects which may be unpleasant). Also, yoga and I can’t stress enough, exercise. Both of these make me feel better about myself even if it is just for a little while. I also never watch news anymore, write in journals or webboards like this to get it off my chest, keep a gratitude journal and really practice being grateful for every tiny little thing people do for me, watch meditation videos, try to meditate….Basically all the things you read about. However, you never know what combination will work best. Having friends and family to talk with is huge.