Dear Bella:

Your last line, it is a beautiful desire, to love and be loved in return. It is a beautiful experience, the most beautiful of all. We are born with that desire, and we die with it. Some people give up on experiencing it, but I don’t think that the need dies before we do.

Your ex was very clear. Better place him in the Past compartment of your brain.

The friend who brought the pizza, maybe he is still an option even though he said that the two of you would have felt better if you held each other. He was probably focusing on having wanted to hold you and be held by you and wasn’t thinking at the moment he said that, that you expressed to him that you are not ready for such. If you talk to him and see him again, you can repeat to him very clearly, that you are not ready or wanting physical intimacy at this point. Then if he ignores your statement a second time, well, then it is a problem.

Good to read from you again, I was wondering about you.

anita