Dear Isra,

I believe that you definitely have the intelligence and insight to see through whatever difficulties you face. Repeated patterns of thinking are habits and recognizing those thoughts that are unhelpful go a long way in your progress.

Patterns of thinking are like habits. They are not impossible to change but the process will take time and with persistence you will be able to root out those thoughts that give rise to you feeling insecure.

Journalling is useful but what you need to journal is your thoughts as they arise in you, understand the impact of it on the way you feel. Then you need to see for yourself how untrue most of the self critical thoughts are. You then go about replacing the self critical thoughts with more rational ones based on reality.

Hope this helps

Take care