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  • #311991

    Prash
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    Dear G,

    The pain of the physical condition and the pain of losing the life that you yearned for as a result of it is something that can be very difficult to deal with.

    The thing that has helped with that is first an acceptance of what is happening, a reappraisal of the possibilities that are remaining. An objective listing of weaknesses and strengths with positive actions addressed at overcoming the weakness and building on strengths has also helped. The journey in to the new life is not easy and constant reminders of what could have been can consistently cause pain. Accept that too.

    While the disability is in itself limiting, make a firm commitment to yourself not to give yourself additional pain by the process of blaming yourself. You are not responsible for what has happened to you.

    You are concerned about your family. Make them proud of you by facing your difficulty head on and doing the best you can. The process will not be easy. There will be ups and downs but as long as you commit and act to always getting up, you will find yourself looking forward to life and its challenges.

    Wish you the best.

    #311663

    Prash
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    Dear Emi,

    I can relate to what you have written.

    I too have a hard time making conversations, because I don’t feel like making small talk just for the sake of them. And like you I have very close family and friends who I am grateful for.

    We may be different from the rest but I don’t think there is anything wrong with people like us. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. Even though people are different, everyone I believe shares the common goal of happiness.

    In this journey we can move forward every day discovering ourselves and accepting who we are.

    Wish you peace and happiness.

     

     

    #311503

    Prash
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    Dear Maria

    I have selected some portions of what you have written that resonates and offered some counter statements and some action steps in the hope that it helps you as it has helped me.

    It is very hard for me to come to terms that it has really ended, it simply feels brutal and horrible.

    Telling myself that it was disappointing. Feeling sad and upset but not horrible. The intensity of the initial feelings will come down with time. During this time avoiding negative self talk as much as possible is useful.

    I always sensed that he is not 100% in and it made me very anxious, worried and needy.

    The other person may not be completely in. I would want the other person to be in completely but it is totally the choice of the other person.

    I pushed with communication, commitment, making plans, and quite often we’d have pretty bad fights about it where I’d blame him for not caring enough and he’d get very angry, yelling me and threatening to end the relationship.

    When we accept that it is their choice, instead of pushing we can firmly convey our feelings and inform calmly what we need.

    I am already 37 and I truly want a family, and he was my person in every way. I tried so hard to give him what he needed, but I obviously failed. I live and work abroad and met him pretty soon after moving here, so he was my rock, my family and my everything here.

    In the pain of separation, we look through a filter. The one that has gone seems to have been perfect. Reminding that it was not all that perfect, there were good as well as bad moments is useful. You “were in fear” as you stated of expressing your feelings, always wary of retribution. How can that be perfect when you are scared to say what you feel is logical.

     I am going through the days in slow motion now, my brain constantly yelling “This can’t be true, when is this nightmare ending and when is he coming back?”.

    If he comes back, are you ready for the same cycle to repeat. If it happens what would you change about how you have dealt with things.

    I constantly hope to hear from him, hoping that he realizes that he made a big mistake. Part of me is also angry and cannot understand how could he plan moving in together if he was having so big doubts about us. Biggest part is blaming myself, how my insecurity and neediness pushed him away and ruined my only chance to have a family.

    It is not your only chance. Maybe it was a reasonable chance but highly unlikely the only chance. How do you know if things would have been better or worse if you were still together.

    I feel completely broken, unworthy, isolated and alone.

    What has happened has happened. It is not something that you like and what has past is past. By putting yourself down and blaming yourself you are not going to feel better. If he or any other person were to come to your life you have a greater chance of a good relationship when you stop blaming yourself and continue to work on your own insecurity so that it doesn’t interfere with your present and future relationships .

    Wishing you the best in whatever ways are possible for you. This is a phase and I hope that you are out of it soon, growing as a person and bettering yourself.

    Take care.

    #311353

    Prash
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    Dear Peggy and Peter,

    Thank you for your kind responses.

    From your words I draw inspiration that mindfulness and being in the present will be much more than just beautiful words for me on a consistent basis; rather a way of life.

    #310843

    Prash
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    Dear Peggy,

    Quoting from your original post –

    The more I remember – The more I can taste the sweet taste of life itself.  We all came from the same place and we are all going to the same place.  Life is that journey.  And then there is no sweeter taste than being fully present in the here and now.

    My journey in to the question of “who am I” started with this concept. Ashes to Ashes. When I remind myself of this commonality about our origin and destination, the differences seem to dissolve. The influence of the mind, the thought process is a bit of paradox. When I think, is when I am able to start seeing oneness and at the same time it is the same process that seems to note the external differences.

    Moments of peace for me are in the absence of thought when that oneness is felt and realized, though that is something that cannot be described in words. And more moments of the same I hope will lead me to that essential self.

    Thank you again for your presence here.

    #310807

    Prash
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    Dear Peggy,

    I was drawn to this post after I read some of the insightful responses that you have given to other members of the tiny buddha community. I look forward to read more of your responses.

    Take care

    #295633

    Prash
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    Dear Anita,

    Thank you for your reply.

    As always your response has been so helpful. I never considered the possibility that the reality is that there isn’t enough time. Rather I was constantly creating more time by fitting in activities as much as possible resulting in frequent episodes of feeling swamped. I keep reading articles on prioritizing and setting goals but it never struck a chord in me till I read your response.

    Ever grateful for your thoughtful and paradigm shifting responses to my posts.

    Wishing that you find peace and joy in all ways that are possible to you.

     

     

     

    #295411

    Prash
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    Dear Anita,

    Hope you are doing well.

    Of late I have been feeling overwhelmed by the amount of things that are to be done. It is as if there is no time for anything. I find this taking a toll on my calmness. I constantly find myself thinking there is not enough time. What is the way to break out of this kind of thinking?

    Looking forward to your insight.

     

     

    #287205

    Prash
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    Dear Coconut

    Sharing here some thoughts I tell myself to be relaxed in the presence of people, to be yourself irrespective of who is around you

    Take stock of your strengths. It can be surprising how often we forget that. Keep reminding yourself on a consistent basis about these.

    Tendency is to focus on what is wrong with you. Shift that focus to what is right.

    You may tend to dislike that thing about others which is actually present in yourself. See if you can recognize that and be willing to forgive yourself as well as others for that.

    Some people may not be deserving of your understanding and compassion but most people are. They are suffering just as you are. When you are able to see this commonality, you are able to let go of the barriers that prevent you from being at ease.

    for those people who seem undeserving let them be; they are not worth your time or effort.

    The mind is powerful. It is able to make you recognize that the thoughts are in your head but yet prevent you from making changes easily. The key is to take it one moment at a time – slow yet steady.

    Take care

    #286925

    Prash
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    Dear Connie

    When you are trying to change something that doesn’t feel right, recognition is the first step and it happens through awareness.

    Something in you says things are not going the way it should. Do a reality check.

    Define what you really want. Ask yourself what is it that you want changed? What are the reasons you want things to change? What is stopping you from making those changes?

    If you change what are the advantages that you think you will have?

    Change doesn’t happen overnight. We are victims of various situations and circumstances, the reasons of which we can only be partially aware.

    The good thing though is that when we are aware, we can make small baby steps one at a time, moment by moment in the direction that we want.

    When we take a mis-step we need to be easy on ourselves and take it as a learning experience and an opportunity for growth, a reminder to proceed in the direction that we intend for ourselves.

    When you talk about inter personal relationships you are adding another person’s complexity to your own complexities. All the more reason to go easy on yourself.

    Be true to yourself. Identify the sources of your own happiness, be at peace with your perceived shortcomings. Work on yourself but don’t let the efforts impair your ability to live your life. Enjoy the journey.

    Take care.

    #235563

    Prash
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    Dear Kkasxo,

    The overwhelming sensation and the scary place are all too familiar. I totally understand when you say that the pain is all that you feel. But I am certain that with time things will be better for you. Wish you the best for that.

    With regards to CBT you can read more on that here – https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/therapy-types/cognitive-behavioral-therapy-0

    “Feeling Good” by David Burns is a good self help book based on that. Till you attend formal counselling, this may help you.

    Take care.

     

     

    #235561

    Prash
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    Dear Anjali,

    You seem to be hurting and angry in this relationship and its aftermath.

    When you focus on the other person, you are likely to miss out on what your true feelings are and what is right for you. Let go of this one and focus only on your well being.

    Take care.

    #235469

    Prash
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    Dear Kkasxo,

    You are welcome. The event in question seems to have been of significant proportions for you to be affected the way you are.

    Given that it has been such a huge thing for you, I assume that what had happened then is still impacting many aspects of your day to day functioning. Even anything that is remotely connected to it is disturbing for you.

    You seem to have lost the ability to trust and therefore prefer to avoid people. You prefer to be alone but even in solitude you are not comfortable as you feel the situation has also changed who you are.

    I am in no position to totally understand exactly what you are going through however I will share some of the things that helped me deal with a life changing situation. In my situation in the beginning I was stuck trying to change whatever I could, to try and get my situation to get back to how it was before the event happened. I was in a bind, struggling between the reality of the situation and my desperate and futile attempts to get back my past. What helped was a gradual process of acceptance, a decision to not keep my life on hold irrespective of what emotions I was going through.

    I allowed myself to feel the uncomfortable feelings of regret, loss and hurt but made myself continue with my life despite those feelings. Mindfulness and meditation helped. Seeking and acknowledging the presence of a higher power helped. A decision to let go of the past and make the best use of what I have in the present helped. This is not to say that the pain is gone, I still feel it at times. But it is in the background whereas I function in the foreground.

    You mentioned about reading self help books and finding it difficult to apply. Have you tried readings related to CBT?

     

    #235443

    Prash
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    Dear Anjali,

    but i want to knw whether he text me in future or not

    Here your guess will be as good as mine. But it is likely that he will contact you; more so if he finds that his relationship with S is not going well or when he is bored of his other online contacts he chats up with.

    What you need to focus on is when and if he contacts you, what is your response going to be.

    have to take a small revenge from him ” like he message me one day, i wil ignore his msg.. this wil give me relief,.

    This kind of relief is likely to be temporary. And if things repeat themselves with him apologizing and you accepting his apology, then the cycle will repeat again.  if it happens, this is going to be in the background of his knowledge of you having contacted his “best friend”, his ex girlfriend and you having used a proxy account to check on him; you can imagine and think for yourself what the level of trust will be in that kind of relationship.

    So the question to you is – Do you want that kind of relationship or one with mutual respect, honesty and trust.

    Take care

     

    #235437

    Prash
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    Dear kkasxo,

    I want to get better.

    I MUST move forward in my life

    Your intentions are clear and the right ones. Very often we find that the mind seems to know what it wants but the heart is unwilling to follow.

    Though the mind knows what is needed, it is often the biggest saboteur that hinders healing. The way we think influences our behaviors much more than we can ever imagine. Once we figure that out we can move forward in our process of healing.

    What are the steps that you have taken for your healing? In the steps that you have taken what has been the most helpful ones? What are the roadblocks that you have faced?

     

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