Thank you. I completely understand what you’re saying and I am def taking care of my self.. I just have this broken feeling inside… I obviously still love my ex… She was my everything. but that’s over and done with… I always say that if I was 30, I would be the happiest person in the world, but this whole 40 thing has got me tripping. I am working VERY HARD on improving my life…. I am going to be in shape and have a great job and all those things, but I also see that my time is running out.

I am big follower of the Red Pill movement.. Not to go into that now, but basically says that women marry up.. and that’s a fact of life. I am not sure I am good enough for women these days. I am not being pessimistic or anything. This is reality. Most women that I am attracted to ( And I am not looking for some super model. I like regular looking woman with good souls, that’s all ) don’t see me… I remember always meeting girls, always having flings or something.. But right now, I am like all alone.. All friends are married, all women are taken, and going on Tinder or POF, is a freaking joke… Hypergamy – Women Marry Up…. It’s a fact of life. There is a whole movement online for men being left behind by society.. and while I am not that pathetic and I don’t hate women, there is major resentment because I see how most of my friends who are married are married to women on certain appearance and the higher the income, the prettier the women….. and while I am a good looking guy, always were able to meet women, I am not marriage material because I don’t have that house or a large savings account and can’t take them on a vacation around the world… I live in the real world, even if that doesn’t sound all that pretty.

https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=hypergamy