Dear Kenny:

You are welcome.

You wrote: “I have come to a decision that I am the negativity in people’s life”. Well, there is at least this one exception: you are not the negativity in my life. And if I met you in person, it would be still true, you would not be the negativity in my life.

For one, you are gracious, being appreciative, thanking me for my replies to you, this is positivity in my life. You write well and clearly, so it is easy for me to understand you, this is another  positivity in my life. And then, you teach me things, teach me more about my life, more about people, by sharing your innermost thoughts and feelings and life experience. This last one is a big positive for me.

You wrote in your original post: “Now I am in a position where I have lost everything including my apartment and studies”-

When you lose everything, a Beginning is all you have available for you. A Beginning can be a beautiful thing. I am not religious but I like Genesis 1. Here is how it starts: “In the beginning”, just like your life right now, in the Beginning.

Next: “The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep”- just like you feel, darkness, sadness, hopelessness.

But look at the beginning of the sentence, “without form and void”, this is what you need to do, void yourself of what you used to believe about yourself, become void of previous incorrect beliefs.

Next, god said, “‘Let there be light’, and there was light. And god saw that the light was good. And god separated the light from the darkness”-

what if you too said: let there be light, and with that light shining you can see what is true and what is not true. Seeing that will be good for you. It says in the quote  that light was good, and light will be good for you too.

You can start from the Beginning and call this day your first day.

anita