Hi Anita,

Thank you for your good insight.

I suspect that at this time i am not yet strong enough to be able to differentiate when she’s lying or not and that makes me crazy and has caused me many sleepless nights being bipolar. i believe i just need to pull myself away for a bit to recharge, strengthen myself and my family for my own mental health.

its just that i fear that if i do this, the bonds between my sister and brother will get stronger and i’ll miss out. she loves the attention she gets from family and is always so proud that her husband is a doctor whom she brags about. my sister is the much loved one as she is the most involved with our family. me, i’m always worrying i’m not good enough. not self pity. i actually feel like i am not good enough and desire the same status as my sister.

my sister said yesterday that i have a big heart and i wear it on my sleeve. how do i not do this?