Dear anita,

yes I am willing to learn. That was why I wanted to give this a try. I tried to overcome my fears, but I should have taken more time.

Maybe I made him feel insecure, because I was insecure myself. Even the thought of starting a relationship makes me very anxious. I couldn’t sleep and I almost started to cry at work, because I was afraid that I couldn’t handle this. But I didn’t tell him this. I would like to get to know someone very slowly…

I didn’t manage to behave naturally around him, so maybe I made him feel bad.

Maybe some part of me wants a strong person to lean onto, but this is not what I truly believe. I don’t think I would be happy in such a relationship. I would rather like to learn how to solve problems myself and take care of myself. I wouldn’t want to load all of my problems onto someone else as this would make me feel bad.

It seems like I have to work on myself first before I meet someone new.

I tried to call him, but he didn’t pick up the phone.