I’ve been beating myself up over this , but I do realize it doesn’t matter anymore , she never wanted to give it a second chance , she separated completely , she had total disregard for my pain , and now , I know  , she is wallowing in self pity and regret. Not meaning to be cruel , but she just wanted to play the whore and I just couldn’t deal with it. So if she ever reads this , and she’ll know exactly who this is , I’m sorry , but I’m happier now , I got extremely lucky finding a woman that does care and voluntarily took on all my psychological baggage to love me. Some people learn from their mistakes , I did. Others refuse to place any blame on themselves and go though their entire lives in denial. Sorry for them , they made those choices themselves . They put themselves in that position.