Dear Lluvia:

I agree with your theory that your “general anxiety .. manifested into this whole thing about (you) potentially being lesbian or bisexual” and that you are in this strong mental loop of fearful thoughts, so strong that it is controlling your life.

This mental loop is not much different in its nature from the mental loops involved in eating disorders, like anorexia, which involves fearful thoughts about gaining weight and it does become so strong that it controls the anorexic’s life. Once an enjoyable thing, eating, becomes a torture.

The solution is a process of healing and managing anxiety. Practically, no longer watching pornography is probably a very good idea. What about psychotherapy?

anita