Dear Manny:

You wrote that you are “a very selfish person”, maybe a narcissist, and evil. The selfish/evil ways you listed are the following: you love talking about yourself, you’re okay with your friends being sad when you don’t keep up with them, act your best with people to make them love you and then leave them to “add that little sad portion to an interesting story”, not feeling fully comfortable/ 100% open with anyone, behave differently in front of different people, moving on quickly when friends leave you, trying to make people you don’t like happy.

You wrote: “Off lately I’ve kinda stopped this (what I italicized above) when I feel like I might hurt anyone but then I just end up being sad and feeling lonely”

I am thinking that maybe you are sad and lonely and have been sad and lonely for a while. Maybe someone was loving toward you and then left you, a mother, a father, someone important in your young life. Maybe the “interesting story” is your story and it has “that little sad portion” to it, that being left portion.

Being left does not necessarily mean being physically abandoned, it is often emotional, a parent being otherwise engaged, a parent’s priority being… not you. Is this the case?

anita