Dear anita

Thank you so much for your replies, it means a lot to me.

1. Indeed, that traumatic experience left me with multiple scars. I couldn’t talk about it for years because it made me cry whenever I thought about it and / or said about it. After all those years, I can talk about it with my therapist.

In the meantime, I had to struggle with an anxiety disorder, burnout, and a depression. This was two years ago.

2. Yes, I firmly believe that I am a failure. Towards my mother, towards my husband. An example. I’m a teacher for adults and for students. I’ve been working in the education field for almost ten years, but I can’t hold a job. My record is three years, that’s it.

I’m angry and disappointed at myself. And the cheating is indeed an expression of my anger. It’s like a vicious circle.

Thank you again for your reply.