Dear Notebook:

This pain of seeing your parents are not happy, it is a kind of pain you have to live with. I too thought that if my mother had more money, if I could make her wealthy, then she would be happy. I was never able to do that for her, to give her the life she envied, one of material luxury. Not even close. But what I have learned is that it wouldn’t have made her happy even if I did. Money and luxury gives pleasure here and there but misery from early life experiences, that doesn’t disappear when money and luxury appears.

That misery will come to the surface in any context.

Basically, there is nothing you can do about your parents’ unhappiness. Best you can do is make a better life for yourself, figuring out what will make you content, if not happy. Figure out what you need to be content, or happy. And then live that life.

I can ask you more questions, but I don’t want to turn your thread to a questions/answers thread. Do add anything you want to post, anything relevant to what troubles you. Maybe about your anger that you felt and expressed to your boyfriend at the time, what that was about.

anita