Kkasxo,

That makes sense. Realistically there would have to be full forgiveness in any kind of relationship between two people if it were to work out.

But the thing with forgiveness is, it takes time. Sometimes a long time. In the meantime that can be hard for all involved. But I get it, if my ex changed his mind tomorrow morning, I’d probably go back to him, despite everyone I know wanting to maim him and despite the damage he has done and the pain he has caused me. But that’s because I miss him and the life I thought we were going to have. It’s natural. But the reason for the split would remain.

This might be a chapter of your life where you have to go it alone, to heal that immense hurt from June. Reconciling might end the pain of loneliness and loss right now but will it heal the massive original wound?

The therapist will help if hopefully you get an appointment soon. Whatever you feel, it’s you processing as best you can, what more can you do? You’re doing the best you can right?

The video above might pass 30 mins for you.