Kkasxo,

I know what it’s like to try and put on a brave face. Some days in work, I can barely breathe, not to mention be a productive happy member of staff. But the only way to heal anything is to face it and talk about it, so I really hope you get a counsellor soon who can help and don’t be afraid to ask for a different counsellor of you don’t click with the first one, it can take time to get the dynamic right.

With medication, remember it doesn’t mean you’re weak or even that it’s permanent. I’m viewing it as a temporary aid to help me recover. My friend was in a 7 year relationship years ago and was devastated when it ended so she took medication for a year, but as she got over it, she came off the medication. She’s totally fine now and happily married with kids!

Your family love you I’m sure and while it can be hard for them to hear, support offers a light in the darkness, I promise you that. In my darkest moments, I’ve called my family and they have just given me enough of perspective to get me out of that particular hole at that particular moment. I can understand how people might urge you to start feeling better and move on if they just think it’s a simple break-up but they might understand if you explain it’s a lot tougher than just that.

I’m ok I guess. Took me ages to get to sleep last night as my tummy was cutting knives but I actually don’t think last night was related to anxiety, i think it was just upset.

I have therapy again today so I’m hoping it will help as I still feel so sad and lost.

We’re always here for you!