Dear John:

I agree with you, “That feeling of complete and utter bliss and happiness. Smiling everyday, just happy to be alive. wanting nothing but to just love her and show her that.. it was the best feeling in the world”-

I have no doubt that it is the best feeling in the world. People invented heaven as a place where one day they will feel this “complete and utter bliss and happiness”.

We all experienced that feeling in early childhood, then forgot (“Yes maybe as a child, but not something you would remember”, you wrote and I agree).

We want that feeling!

It was almost magical, that you felt that feeling for as long as you did with your ex girlfriend, for hours at a time  and day after day for a while. And yet, John, I have no doubt that it was not sustainable. If it wasn’t “her older son really started causing drama that things got sh**&”, it would have been something else.

There is no way that feeling would have lasted.

So again, I am back to my point: you are following a fantasy. That feeling is not sustainable. You got your heavenly experience (not continuous, but an impressive amount of it) and now it is gone. Not because the relationship ended, but because we do not live in heaven.

We can imagine heaven, but we don’t live in heaven.

anita