Kkasxo,

I think that’s one of my biggest fears…..that I’ll never get over my ex. That he’ll always be up there on that pedestal that I could never reach and that I will always feel the loss of him. I hate that I’m not with him now, it just pisses me off. But again, I can’t change it, even though I’d love to. He is happy to stick to his decision. I have a feeling he might go travelling soon. If he did, maybe I would relax more if I found out, knowing he was far away and I’d never hear much about him again.

I’m sorry you’re co confused. I wish I could help. It seems to me the relationship is nearly off the table until you can figure out everything that has happened to you? But I could be completely wrong. Work is keeping me going today, as in….it’s a distraction at least.

I’m going to try and do another 4k walk this evening with my friend. She suffers from anxiety too and had heartbreak several years ago so she’s pretty understanding. Well done you and planning to go to the gym, maybe boxing a few punches on a punchbag will help get some frustration and anger out!

I might visit my sister and nephew later for another distraction, are you getting as sick of planning distractions as I am?!

I always feel better though knowing I’m not alone in the heartbreak boat!