Kkasxo,

If my ex came back tomorrow, I would be extremely anxious, who wouldn’t be I guess? He has hurt me so badly, I would be completely fearful of that happening again. I realistically know that we could only work out if he felt he wanted the same future as me, with me. I cannot see that happening, which is such a shame, because we really got on so well together and there was so much respect and kindness.

A deep clean might be a good plan, I should probably do the same. Lots of advice says to change things around in your room to disrupt the reminders of your ex, but I haven’t done that yet. We’ll see.

I do fear the damage has been done with your ex alright and I’m glad he’s being good about things now. Would you get back together with him and see how it goes? See if you can work on it together? My only concern is that I wouldn’t want to see you hurt again and left in a terrible place. But happy to support you with whatever advice I can give whatever you decide to do.

Once you actually get therapy, hopefully it’ll be someone good, they really do help figure out what’s happening and where you can go moving forward, so let’s hold tight for another couple of weeks!

I don’t have much therapy this week as my counsellor is away, but I think I’m managing a bit better with medication. However, I might speak to him next week about whether I should be ‘feeling it out’ a bit more. Perhaps I should be grateful for the reprieve and stop being so over-analytical!