Dear Ivy:

I think it will be a mistake if you travel to Europe when you are broke for the purpose of talking to him in person, trying to change his mind.

The magic of getting together with him, a lot of it was  the magic of your travel in Europe, and  him carrying you there when you were tired, and taking care of you in those special circumstances. The relationship did  not survive the after-trip circumstances.

I don’t think you can re-create the  magic that  was. I think this magic was about the travel and  it did not survive the after-travel. I hope you recover from the emotional attachment   you formed and are able perhaps to enter a relationship where  you live, in Malaysia?

anita