Kkasxo,

It was a strange one, I had a hood up so I’m thinking he only realised it was me, when he nearly was right in front of me and by then he had almost passed. Also, what else could he do I suppose? I guess I’d keep driving too if I saw him, not knowing what to do at the time except escape.

It was just another example of how I’m not part of his life now and that hurts. To be honest, he’s never normally in my area despite his company headquarters being close to my building. But it was always once in a blue moon he would ever have to go to HQ. He even told me in that phone conversation recently that he’s not in my area at all anymore. But I guess something came up and they must have called him in.

I don’t suspect I’ll see him again, but I just feel like a fool. I’m here pining away every minute of every day for him and he’s moving on and just treating me like an ‘awkward ex’. Why can’t I have more backbone or more anger towards him or something to help me think I’m better off. I can’t muster anything but loss.

Did you feel like this and if not now, when or why did it start to change?