Shelby,

I think for the time being just accept whatever it is that you feel towards him and go with the flow. It is only natural that you still love him and care for him dearly, regardless of anything else, afteall he was a major part of your life for many years. I read somewhere that it takes at least half the amount of time of the relationship to actually get over someone fully. As in be able to walk past them on the street, even say hello and feel absolutely nothing. If this theory is true, we have a while longer to go!

Netflix has been an absolute life saver for me! Let me know if you get to watching anything interesting, I’m coming to the end of my series now so will need a new distraction!

We have just been chilling and having a relaxed evening with a few drinks for my sisters birthday. It’s nice – a distraction. I think I’ll close the evening with some Netflix too and a lovely sleep with no alarm!

What are your plans for tomorrow?