I think he might bail on me a second time.

I did text him and directly address his concern of ‘returning to the same dynamic’. I said I’ve realized some things about the way I relate to men that now I know, I cannot unsee. So we can’t possibly go back to that old dynamic. :/

Anyway I’m feeling anxious (Or angry?) again now but mindful its because I feel a bit ignored after making myself vulnerable. Even though I’m like: get a grip that was about 2 hours ago.

Despite his claims to be interested in self-development, he’s actually passive-aggressive and now sure he’s got the capability for the personal growth claims to seek. Like I saw myself chasing my own tail trying to figure out my issues: that is he.