Unfortunately yes,
We are both missing each other – she badly regrets what has happened but I’m reluctant to set myself up to be hurt again. Plus the trust would be really difficult to rebuild.

For the reason that we miss each other, we are struggling to cut off contact. She is coming to see me tonight because she wants to talk about everything that has happened (not to make me feel bad about anything, she’s not angry at me as she understands that my emotions have been all over the place).

I’m just dreading having to go through the probable last goodbye again. When I broke up with her it was easy because I was angry at her but now that I’m sad I think I will have a harder time letting go.