Hello Anita,

How are you?

Thanks for your message.

Phewee was yesterday full on. I was rushed to hospital for some potential emergency surgery – getting my appendix cut out! It was scary!! After tests it turns out I don’t have appendicitis- but they don’t know what is wrong with me.
I’d have preferred it to be appendicitis if I am honest, and be done with it.
Anyway my mates and my mum took good care of me and I felt very loved. (My dad is away with work but was so worried he wanted to get a flight back from China to be here!)

1- I am monogamish. Meaning mostly monogamous but the occasional shag elsewhere is tolerated provided it is not with someone who may threaten the integrity of the relationship. (Eg. someone you have strong feelings for, an ex….) Honestly regarding these affairs is super important.

2. You wrote that you don’t know who is a decent person and who is not, let’s think about this man: do you think he is decent at times but when he rejects you or doesn’t respond to you in a timely manner, then feeling angry at him, you think he is not decent, passive aggressive and so forth? It might be the anger talking. You can trust your evaluation when not angry.

This is a fair comment. Its true I need to check in with myself and pay attention to the anger in particular. I will think about this but am unable to respond to your question directly at the moment. Lack of trust feeds the beast.

Mr Gentleman seems to have calmed down a LOT since I explained to him my reasons for meeting a bit more. He said it sounded like a positive meeting – so I think he will not bail on me this time. (Although I did pre-emptivley cancel because I believed I would be in hospital on Thursday. So we may have to re-arrange again! He was nice to me about the hospital thing.)

-Feathering

xx

PS- as we talk more and more it is getting harder and harder not to sign off with my real name.