Hello Mark and Anita,

I haven’t been on Tiny Buddha as much because life has just been busy.  I appreciate the follow up, but there isn’t much that has changed, other than I am expressing myself more, and calling my husband on some of the things that I need to see change.

Mark, to answer your question, “Do you want to sleep in [this bed] or go find another bed?”

The answer is neither.  I’m not keen on the thought of starting a relationship with someone else, and yes, I’ve had opportunities to do so, and I did explore that.  I don’t see that as the answer.

I stay where I am because I don’t relish the thought of all the upheaval that would come with getting a divorce – I think I said that somewhere before.

Getting a divorce might mean something better for me – and no guarantee there.  I know it would mean pain for a lot of other people, and I don’t think I could live with that.

If you have thoughts about this, I will read with open eyes, ears and heart.

Airene