Shelby,

No my dear you are not going backwards. In fact you are moving forward, through each of these phases, through the ups and downs, the good and the bad you are moving forward. It may not seem that way but you are! This is all part of the process.

If you are anything like me, I do believe you’ll struggle with the acceptance of it all because I always have more questions. I need complete and utter clarity at all times. Once something becomes clear it almost becomes a fact in my head and I am then methodically able to break it down into small sections that I need to deal with. Organisation freak I know but that is just how I manage things. If my questions remain unanswered I end up dwelling on the endless possibilities of what the answer could, should or would be and as a result my mind ends up going into overdrive and I spend way too much of my time focusing on this one little thing and never really get anywhere anyway because I don’t know the actual answer. Can you relate at all?

My evening was ok, I guess that’s the best way to describe it. I survived. I’m still breathing. I didn’t get to the gym unfortunately but I did a gentle home work out instead and then indulged in a few drinks.

Did you get up to much at all?