Dear Tristan:

She lies so no wonder she is inclined to believe other people lie too. Yes, probably a projection about the girl at work. I suppose she was lied to in her past,  most likely early  on. She then proceeded to lie to others, and  so it goes. But you don’t lie, do you, even though you were lied to by her and  before her-

Better continue to not lie, but evaluate women/ people better so to figure out if they are trustworthy. If not stop the  interactions with the untrustworthy person. It is unwise  to be honest with  a dishonest person. Better withdraw and limit your honestly to those who are honest with you.

It caught my eye that you wrote a few posts ago that  you were trying to medicate the  monotony of your life, it  caught my eye because  I  have been a bit bored recently with the monotony of my  life. Then I remembered seeing people looking  bored doing things that are  meant to be exciting,  out of the ordinary, things others dream about doing. And of course there are the stories of celebrities leading  their exciting lives, or should-be-exciting lives, having  all the excitement money can buy and yet, there  it is, boredom,  that  monotony of emotion nonetheless.

It takes having a purpose  in life, a passion of some kind to break that  boredom, to return to being motivated.  Yet  sometimes everyone  is bored and then, it is about not getting desperate and resorting to any old thing so to  escape the boredom, but endure it instead. There is satisfaction/ pride of sorts in enduring boredom with dignity.

* Hope to  read  from you when I am back to the computer in about sixteen hours.

anita