Kkasxo,

I think it’s normal to be up and down. ANYTHING you’re feeling is legitimate, remember that. If you are acting out in a way that you think is foolish- treat yourself like a small child – with as much kindness and patience. You’re working through stuff still- it’s a work in progress, so it’s not going to be rainbows and sprinkles straight away. There would appear to be a lot to process.

Im so tempted to contact him this evening but I will try and put it out of my head for now and focus on my day in the here and now!

Fingers crossed!