Hi Inky, Initially I used to feel guilty..but now I don’t. Somewhere I know , I am not wrong because I have fallen for someone I have even rarely met(only 2 times.). Usually, you will get the sibling feeling from cousin when you have spent too much time with them as siblings.All of our interactions happen over call. How can society and family expect me not to fall for someone, who I share such a great bonding with?

Somewhere I do realize  that though society judges us based on our looks, I have diminished my chances by being too insecure about my height. In recent years , I have started interacting more with girls, and have come to know most of the girls are not as judgemental once they get to know you.

Yes , Arranged marriage is quite prevalent in India. But the bad part of arranged marriage is, people first go for the looks. And yes , you are really true, that I have not even tried , as I was always too afraid of being rejected. My cousin was someone, who I could easily approach too. Besides, she is a very good human being and has always been very supportive. Whenever we talk, she gives those good vibes and  is too proud of me and that gives me great confidence as she is someone who has accepted me completely even when I have never been able to do so. She has never been concerned about my insecurities and hose things never mattered to her.