Kkasxo,

Honestly sometimes there are so many points you make that resonate with me. You kind lady, are far stronger than me. You have more self worth, you know the things you are not willing to put up with or sacrifice long term. Where on earth is my backbone?!

Maybe I do need to be rejected again to get it into my head. You’re right, I know what i know already however there must be a flicker of delusion keeping some hope alive and that might be completely extinguished. Which has good and bad points. Some might say good because once hope is gone, acceptance must come, bad because I could sink again after it.

Im trying to listen to my gut, but it’s of course lately as I don’t know when my heart or when my head is talking and neither is the gut really?

I believe you deserve happiness, fulfilled happiness. From what i know of you on the forum, I genuinely believe you deserve the kind of happiness that nearly makes you giggle with the amount of it bursting from your heart. So make sure you get that!

Thanks so much for being a lifeline!