Hi Kkasxo,

He texted back at 4am, hence he reason I felt he was abroad, plus his sister messaged me yesterday and said he was sorry to hear about him and I and that she had just heard, because she hasn’t been in touch with Home recently and her family tends to only share info face to face. So I put two and two together.

He was incredibly formal, even at 4am, wishing me belated birthday wishes. I asked if we could talk but he left it hours to reply. Then he phoned me, but I was with my sister and couldn’t answer.

Besides, I didn’t want to talk over the phone, while I’d imagine that’s his preference. I messaged a little later to apologise for missing the call and asked if he could meet me at some stage when he is around.

It turns out he doesn’t appear to be abroad and is meeting me tomorrow evening. So now it’s about trying to come out of this interaction with as much of my heart and what little is left of my self esteem held together, if not exactly in tact.

Now that it’s coming, I don’t know what to say. Being fully honest seems to go against most people’s advice in the sense it will make me feel desperate and pathetic and appear so to him, but we’ll see.

He has arranged a public place, so as to avoid any kind of emotional traumatic experience again I presume.