Dear Foxtree:

You “had no reason as a kid to feel sadness, and there is no reason”. You were “born this way”, sad, depressed. You “exaggerated things, maybe I was victimizing myself”-

* if you were born this way, how is it that you “suffered with depression since a preteen” and not before?

“When teachers handed out papers to the class, if there wasn’t enough for me, I thought they did it on purpose because it was me, and they knew I’d be the one to miss out. That I didn’t  matter”.

*Any  I-didn’t-matter experience before school, or outside school, at home, with your parents? Maybe sitting at the dinner table and receiving the smallest piece of steak or everyone gets dessert but not you? Or  maybe your birthday was forgotten while others’ birthdays were celebrated… or any such thing?

More important, have  you been and are you  willing to consider that your parents were  anything but perfectly loving and attentive to you?

anita