I’m processing things a little more at this stage.

Im thinking it might not have been a good thing in the long run seeing him. I miss him even more now. I really do want to be back with him and that’s knowing nothing has changed, so what does that say about me?

I honestly don’t know if he felt afterwards that he had done his duty and has absolutely no intention of getting back with me at any point, but is just worried about me at this time of year, or if he is in two minds now.

Confusion continues. Again I can take the advice of earlier posters on this thread and take his actions as truth- if he WANTED to be with me, he would be. But it’s so hard. Everything is opaque to me. Perhaps because my heart doesn’t want me to see it clearly.

How will I ever move on? I want to be happy in life.