Kkasxo,

I’ve definitely kept myself busy over the past month and have been taking up any invitation I receive. But I still couldn’t say I’m ‘happy’ as such. I do things that are not horrible such as going to the cinema with friends or going away for the weekend, but I still feel a void, a loss. I’m reading books and getting some exercise and meeting loads of friends and getting out and about. However, despite my best efforts, I still miss him and would rather being doing all that stuff with him. We will see if this changes with time as people keep assuring me. I’m worried it won’t.

Sometimes the drama can overtake the relationship, that’s true, it’s hard to know. A lot has seemed to happened with your ex and I supposed it’s still relatively raw for those who care about you. If you reunited in a year say, things might have settled down a bit more and the bad taste would not be as bitter. At the end of the day though, do what YOU need to do. Even if every single person you know disagrees with your choice, if it makes you happy, then it’s worth it isn’t it?

I’m looking forward to the new arrival in one way but apprehensive too for some reason, maybe because it could highlight that I’m not where I thought I would be at this stage in my relationship/life.

I’m finished work tomorrow until after Boxing Day so I’m looking forward to a bit of a break. I’ve been going going going so much lately (trying to distract myself I guess), that I’m exhausted! I’ll think about whether I want to hear from my ex over Christmas next week. I don’t have the mental capacity for it at the moment.

Only one more sleep for you?