Hey, merry christmas. Came to check on thread and saw it was bumped. Quite a lot has happened including a hospital visit for me, almost 2.

So we talked on the phone a few days after I left this thread, wanted to ask her some questions so asked if we could talk after her  dance she was instructing, she called me while she was having a bath and I asked her if I could ask some personal questions to get to know her better, she told me to not be shy and ask away with a smile in the text. So she called me in her bath like I said, asked her some personal questions to know her better (where she’s going, biggest fear, biggest inspiration, etc), we talked for 40 minutes, she said would have been longer but she had to get out of the tub. Then I went for my first time getting a massage (back) at her job, I was nervous because my anxiety and  just seeing her for the first time since our October  hangout made me even more nervous (including getting numb in the legs). Walked her to her car, she said it’s too bad her class is for women only (yeah too bad) and felt like I had more energy in my body and more flow in my arms for a few days.  Got it for free but I wanted to give her a tip so she said sure, tipped her half of what it was gonna cost me and said that my next few will be free as well to pay me back, I might just pay her in tips because I really don’t like getting things for free and I can’t support her or her job this way. When she told me the questions for getting to know her better I have for some reason not been into her as bad as I have prior to this post, I guess she told me something I don’t like or wanted to hear? think it has to do with the ex that still lives with her? leaving him was her biggest fear, but she’s not left him.

Then I had a hospital visit like a week later, was in some of the worst pain OF MY LIFE! dad brought me to hospital, I was in waiting room  for 6 hours and nearly 2 hrs waiting for the nurse. People must have thought I was crazy, I was freaking out in my seat from the pain…apparently it was from constipation, had my first enema. Then once I did my business I felt like I was on cloud 9, the pain was gone and all that was left  was feeling like a million bucks! Walked home.

Last week did my candy cane tradition at my work before I left and some to some of the customers and was helping an elderly person grab some money from the ground and gave her a candy cane wishing her merry christmas.

Last week went to her work and gave her the present (both mugs) and a card, as well as some candy canes and she liked I got her something but told me I don’t have to but said I wanted to and something she said to me I just HAD to get this for her, she smiled. We talked for about 25 minutes, she’s getting me something apparently, told her she does not have to I don’t give people gifts so they can give me gifts. Told her what the massage did for me for a few days, made her feel really happy hearing that. Gonna meet up for coffee next month sometime (i’ll try for middle of month), walked her to her car and we hugged (we hugged 3 times total), she also grabbed my hands and was massaging them as we talked. After I said I was gonna go back to hospital because I think I have a hernia problem? went to a clinic instead and told me it was just constipation, hernia is fine.

So been dealing with constipation for a little while, gonna try booking an appointment with a colon hydrotherapy person soon and clean out my colon and my constipation.

Took some restoralax powder for the 3rd day in a row and seemed to either have some type of reaction to it or a panic attack, still can’t seem to yawn properly and it’s been 90 minutes. :/

Going to call her in a few days, prob wont phone her for a few mins if she texts me about the present. We can talk on the 27th/28th. Gonna try asking more questions about her starting in the new year to get to know her better. Why not? Then hang out again when it’s warmer and will hope that we start hanging out more often (like monthly hikes?) like we both really wanted to back in October.

So this is what has been happening for me since we last talked. How have you been? you and the family all good? hope so. Merry christmas.