Dear Lara:

I submitted a post to you on your new thread  before reading your recent entry on this thread. Well, it is your very active, aggressive inner critic voice who told you in the event you  described above something like this:

-everyone is standing looking at you because you did something wrong.. again! What did you mean by that thing you said, “well off you go”? What a &&^* thing to say! And in a military tone! How unfriendly! They are all standing there looking at you because they are thinking how *^(& you are! And you didn’t even say Merry Christmas! Plus, to make your performance even worse, there was not even a  reason to hurry everyone. You hurried them for no reason!

(“everyone was still standing around and then looking at  me for some reason and I was like ‘well off you go’ with a slightly military tone… I thought ‘yeah or you could have said Merry Christmas… worrying what people are thinking of me… we might not have needed to hurry so much… ”

I believe that the voice that “shouting stuff” at any one time is either your aggressive inner critic voice or it is the part of you that is suffering under the aggression and tyranny of that inner critic, the part that “spend the whole way back and the  next day agonizing“.

anita