When I think about him, I think that we have similar problems (just that I am a lot worse). He told me that he never wants to hurt anybody. On the phone he told me again that he “doesn’t want to continue to hurt me”. He also said how he likes to help people. He helped his siblings when he was a child, he told me he helped people from his country, who are new in Germany. He also helped a friend and gave her money, then had financial problems of his own.

The last thing we wanted to do is to hurt someone. Ironically, we ended up hurting each other. This is my theory. I don’t know if it makes sense.

Somehow when I’m with others, I neglect my own wants and feelings and needs. It is maybe this, what my therapist wanted to tell me. I have become numb to my own feelings when I’m with others.

I’m wondering if I need more than just a therapist???