Hey steve, I am the same, I have quite severe social anxiety. I think it’s mainly a collection of bullying as a young child to having a dad who was really firm about who he was and who I should be if you see my thinking.

I had to quit work not because of social anxiety but because of meaninglessness in my life. I was turning up at work and was making mistakes because I literally didn’t care about anything. I have decluttered a lot of the rubbish thoughts I have about things but I still struggle with the meaning. A lot of my friends live in a different part of the country for me and they all seem to be going quite seperate ways in their lives so it doesn’t feel like there’s much alignment anymore.

I’ve signed up to go to local group classes, I despise these things because I know theres loads of bull**** from the people who run them as they’re there for their paycheque and don’t really care about the people around them who are openly struggling.

Would you join any groups or anything like that? Or even get an extra small side job to help keep you social? I know the feeling of pointlessness, that’s what I feel most of the time and it’s really hard to find any motivation at all to just live life.

Best of luck.

B