Ah Shelby – sending you the biggest hug right now. I was worried about writing that post but just felt it had to be done – and that reaction is exactly why I know you are going to be ok and come through this to a better place. Having the strength to face the truth and deal with it is the only way to really pull that thorn out and stop it being a pain in your side the rest of your life. You absolutely should be mad and sad and you will probably switch between both for a while yet, I know I did.  Yeah, the plateau stage…it was…not inspiring….it passed too, eventually. A bit like exercising, you just have to keep plugging away, knowing that eventually things will shift again and you will realise you have progressed further.  I absolutely thought I’d never have that kind of intense relationship again, being able to share everything with other and being so close but I was wrong – and now I have something so much better which I would never ever ever have believed.  Just do your best to hope, look forwards and enjoy what is good in your life each day best you can. That person who could travel by themselves to Africa & US is still in there – she’s just taken a huge knock and needs a bit of help getting back up.

Btw – huge kudos on the travelling alone…I fell in love with South Africa recently, awesome place..off for my first ever trip to Asia soon which should test my comfort zone nicely…. Yeah, I do love Norfolk, it was worth the stupid long commute into London for work for sure. It’s not exactly Downton Abbey but it is pretty, calm and allegedly the sunniest place in the UK now. And affordable 🙂