Michelle,

I think perhaps people have more faith in me than is merited. I’m not being unreasonably harsh on myself here, but I talk a good game! I know about self care and worth and realising he hasn’t made a single attempt to contact me and the reasons we broke up. I know it all. On a surface level. I still don’t FEEL it, if that makes sense? It hasn’t penetrated or something, I find it hard to explain. But here I am wondering about when would be a good time to reach out to him. How could we get it back on track, what help would we need. It’s exhausting and I can’t seem to switch it off.

If I do other activities or plan things or keep myself busy, he is still there at the back of my mind in everything I do.

I have never been to Asia, but I’d imagine it will be an incredible experience so enjoy! And you always have the sunniest place in UK to come home to!!!