Thank you again, your words are so very helpful.  I have noticed that pull towards suspicion, paranoia, and negativity today but I was able to not get involved with it.  I keep whispering to myself, “one week.”  I think that if I can see the rewards of one week of consciously working towards my goals and not allowing my thoughts to take me  under, I will be able to continue.  One thing I have noticed in myself the past 6 months is my propensity to find something to obsess about, concerning my boyfriend.  If I am able to let go of one obsession then it is immediately replaced with a new worry.  If I am not obsessing about the sex then I am obsessing about the idea that he may be cheating, etc. etc.  It’s almost as if I am addicted to the chaos in my mind.  It’s quite troubling.  However, as you said, I am working to notice and gently correct.