Well these past few days have been positive for me.  I find myself feeling released from a lot of my anxiety and I feel confident and powerful in a way.  No sex this weekend but I knew it wouldn’t happen and without the expectations of it happening I feel much less hurt.  I aimed to be positive and casually affectionate and I accomplished that. I had some anger this morning but I let it go and took care of some chores and shopping.  BF was very affectionate while we were out with friends and looking at me differently.  I’ve noticed his gaze is different too these past few days, he is holding his gaze longer when he looks at me and is wanting longer hugs and wants to hold me a lot.  I also was up early this morning thinking about how awesome of a woman I really am.  I had this thought that if at some point our sex drives do not match up then it’s also okay if I leave and choose to step away.   I’ve noticed these past few days that my pull for him sexually is calming down.  I don’t need it for validation because I’m already a great gal.