Hi Anita

I think the lack of communication and commitment in the relationship really did have a knock-on effect on my self-confidence where I was really questioning my self-worth. And I think once I realised it was not healthy at that point, I promised myself to look after me and I did a bit of travelling and really focused on my education. I was in a better place, and I feel like because I’ve made this a bit of a self-love routine, it’s not working for me anymore, self love seems to be tiring. I feel frustrated with myself as he has come back new and improved better than ever knowing what he wants, which is me, but I’m still pushing him away because of fear that he could repeat the past. Maybe I’m not emotionally available but I cannot seem to put my finger on it because I feel like I have grown a lot in the past year. There is some part of me that is not ready so I keep telling myself to stay single but I am still not completely content alone?

Thanks

Eeman