Hi M

I understand all of this, but when you’re surrounded by everyone saying ‘once a cheater always a cheater’, you resort to the idea of a different possibility- if people change how long for? In my opinion, it’s been several months and he’s remained consistent the second time around with his behaviour which is why I always contemplate the chance we could be, as he’s been very supportive of me friendship wise. I could always leave, he knows that. But of course, the past is always there. I think the pressure of knowing he’s waiting but I’m not ready is more so the problem. I am struggling to find the difference between thinking wishfully and realistically, I think being stronger alone is always better than being half strong with a good person, which is why whenever I attempt to involve with a new person romantically, I tend to cut it off when it gets too serious because I compare everything to him, even though I am scared. Am I meant to give this time? Look for new people? Attempt again with him? Maybe gain some self-clarity? I’ve always been overwhelmed with possibilities.

Eeman.