Hello Anita,

Here I am again in a stressful place. I have been taking your advice and have been trying to continue whether it’s a good or bad day. I have had high anxiety for about 2 weeks and I have done my daily duties through it all. I was able to do so by loving myself and telling myself I love myself constantly, also by giving myself what I need. Last week a relentless bout of anxiety has overcome me. I fear I have made the wrong decision moving in with my aunt. My gut was telling me that but I over ruled my mind by thinking I could handle the situation. She is completely codependent and is driving me crazy. I don’t know if it is her or my own codependency. She calls me in the morning on her way to work, on her lunch, when she gets off work and text throughout the day. She is a little passive aggressive and controlling. I have tried to set boundaries but I am so new to them and it is hard. I believe this is the cause for this recent bout of severe anxiety causing me no sleep for 3 nights. I fear I am alone in the world. My family was supportive when I first came to Chicago in need but now that things are in motion it seems I am only good when someone needs something. And I feel like everyone is always needing something and expects me to help. I feel bad because I do want to help but at this point in my life I cannot help anyone but myself and I feel afraid of that. I do not know who and what to trust. I am so scared in this moment. I would have to say I think I have had suicidal thoughts. I cannot take my codependency or anyone else. I am trying so hard to set boundaries but it has been so very hard as it seems no one respects those. Is this world this bad? I feel like I have been used my whole life. I do not know if i am exaggerating but it seems this way. I am thinking of renting an Airbnb for a couple of days and see how I feel on my own away from the world. What do you think about this? Is this impulsive or productive to what I am going through. When I get this bad with anxiety I find it hard to trust my own decisions. I just want some relief. If i do go to an Airbnb should I be honest with my Aunt? or Make it seem I am going elsewhere. I want to communicate effectively but also do not want anymore on my plate I cannot handle. Please and thank you for all of your advice.