Mrs. Richardson,

I wonder how much of your parents’ qualities and characteristics are like the bosses you have worked for?  We tend to attract those people from our FOO (family of origin).  Have you gotten therapy for this pattern?

I wonder if you tried consulting or short term contract work?  Even helping small businesses with their social media or marketing.

You can also look to volunteer to build a resume and a track record of success.

I can fully understand how daunting finding jobs is.

I suggest that you examine yourself (without or with a therapist) on where else this belief of not being able to make a living.  Go back to your childhood and examine what values your parents have around money and making a living. What sort of work did they do and how they talked about it?  Were they happy with their work?  Were they happy with themselves?

I suspect it is more than than one incident with your photo teacher that deeply affected your current behavior and beliefs.

Mark