Dear anita,

Thank you for your reply and for being patient with me.

When you asked the question about a particular mental habit that I need to change, it got me thinking. It is difficult to pin point a particular habit. I guess the more appropriate thing to do may be to re-program my subconscious mind for thinking positively.

I am able to make out that the constant feelings of negativity, anxiety, stress and what not are taking a toll on my productivity and also physical health.

To add to this, both my parents are also not positive thinkers. And this has been the case all throughout my childhood.  So I don’t have someone to look up to in my house. In fact now a days I end up giving them suggestions about taking things positively. This is quite energy draining at times.

My wife is quite optimistic, but she alone is not enough to take all of us out of the negativity. And she already has her hands full in managing her work and tending to our baby.

Last week was a bit better as I had a mood swing and I came to a non-negative state. I am saying non-negative because it indeed feels like that. During this phase I tend to have some thoughts other than negative ones, but not highly positive ones.

So there is some kind of cyclic pattern that is going on. Previously before my current downfall, the cyclic nature was there but it was more inclined towards positivity. But of late it has inclined towards negativity.

I hope you can understand my situation. What I am looking forward to is some method or technique that someone has used successfully to get out of such a situation. I am very sure that what I am experiencing is only in my mind. If someone or something can drive the negativity out, it will be of great help.