I thought it only right to update this, one last time.

So with my quarterly cancer check up next Wednesday, I asked if she wanted to meet. To which she came back and said she had a compulsory networking event for work, so wouldn’t be able to meet. Not so bad, but when you consider I was only across the street last Friday for an interview, which she knew about, it’s clear she doesn’t want to see me. It’s funny how you plan things out in your head, and then reality throws you a curve ball. Talk about anti-climatic.

I’m pretty sure she’s dating someone else now, which is probably why she doesn’t want to meet. I’m not upset about that, because honestly I want her to be happy. Even if I wish she’d have tried harder with me. The only shred of comfort I take from all this is that she, most likely, wasn’t cheating on me when we were together.

I’m not going to chase her anymore, I’m not going to ask her to meet again and I certainly won’t be her emotional net. I care about her but I need to protect myself at this point. 7 months of pondering, hoping and trying is enough.

I just wanted to thank everyone who has given me their time and advice, especially you Anita. It has been really helpful hearing other perspectives. If nothing else I’ve learned some hard lessons about relationships and life.